Sunday, December 28, 2008
i don't deserve that
finally i got my spects!!! woooo.. i am enjoying my new spects now.. hahahaha.. even though my degree isn't that bad.. but its still alittle blurry.. i am having perfect vision now!! another thing to add on about my spects.. is that its with Transition lens.. hee.. it will change the tone of the lens to the degree of brightness i am in.. wow.. hee.. don't find it weird that u see me looking at the sun in the next few days.. see it change is addictive!i would rather that i didn't see her face to face.. its been about 8 months since we last saw each other.. glad that the short meeting is able to be within this year.. thanks for making it so clear for me..
i refused to be affected by how you treats me..
anyway, its 3 more days to a new year..
thats when everything will end..
thats a dateline i'll never push.. or miss.. i stood by her long enough.. long enough to be called a fool.. i never regretted a second.. but i think.. its long enough..
finally.. final stage.. Tattoo
No matter what you say about love,
I keep coming back for more,
My hand in the fire,
sooner or later I get what i'm asking for
No matter what you say about life,
I learn every time I bleed.
The truth is a stranger
My soul is in danger,
I gotta let my spirit be free to,
Admit that I was wrong and then change my mind.
Sorry but I have to move on and leave you behind.
I can't waste time so give me the moment
I realize nothing's broken
No need to worry about everything I've done
Lived every second like it was my last one.
Don't look back got a new direction
Loved you once, needed protection.
You're still a part of everything I do, you're on my heart just like a Tattoo,
Just like a tatto, I'll always have you.
I'm sick of playing all of these games
It's not about taking ties.
When I look in the mirror,
Didn't deliver
It hurt enough to think that I could stop
Admit that I'm wrong and then change my mind.
Sorry but I gotta be strong and leave you behind
I can't waste time so give me the moment
I realize nothing's broken
No need to worry about everything I've done
Lived every second like it was my last one.
Don't look back got a new direction
Loved you once, needed protection
You're still a part of everything I do, you're on my heart just like a tattoo, I'll always have you.
If I live every moment
Won't change any moment
Still a part of me and you.
I will never regret you
Still the memory of you
Marks everything I do.
I can't waste time so give me the moment
I realize nothing's broken
No need to worry about everything I've done
Lived every second like it was my last one
Don't look back got a new direction
Loved you once, needed protection.
You're still a part of everything I do, you're on my heart just like a tattoo.
Just like a tattoo
I'll always have you.
if pain is needed to grow, i thank u.. u will always be my heart's tattoo.. bye
Posted by qi at 12:52 PM
Thursday, December 25, 2008
merry christmas!
WOW.. its finally Christmas.. ha.. so many ppl wished me, yet most of them i don't have their number.. hmmm.. thank you though~ ^^hmmm.. i am really troubled recently.. what does life wants from me this time.. i am actually surprised at how lady luck is stuck with me.. i mean.. life was never this good to me.. please.. don't let all these be a reason for u to take away something from me.. i don't have much.. and this little left is what i really treasures..
hmmm.. let me be grateful..
1)i met many great friends.
2)i got free movie tickets and watched a great movie FOC.
3)i managed to get a break from work and school.
4)i am feeling so much better.
5)i don't really remember how she looks like.
6)shine shine is getting cuter.
7)my event is over and it was quite successful.
8)my sister broke up her bf and having so many better guys going after her.
9)i am enjoying my single hood.
10)i got a new phone for my room.
11)my lappy is working fine.
12)i am saving the world almost every night.
13)i lose weight (maybe a little too much..)
14)i won $260 on MJ last weekend.
15)i won $85 on MJ last 2 days.
16)i won $310 on Texas Poker today.(what a great Christmas gift!!)
etc....
arg!! nonono!!! life is being too nice.. something is happening soon is it? don't like that.. we can work something out ya? Mr Life.. hmmm.. i think u must be a lady.. sorry sorry.. (cos u are always unpredictable and... i better stop here...) Miss Life.. please.. don't take anything from me.. i don't have much left.. i really treasure everything in my life now..
Posted by qi at 3:21 AM
Wednesday, December 24, 2008
warming-up-for-Christmas PARTY!!
ha.. was really feeling very lazy yesterday.. and maybe due to the fact that i just recovered from my flu, i was not really in the mood for partying.. yet, in the end, i still gave in to Cecilia's constant and persistent invitation..it was so last min, that i didn't even prepared a gift for the gift exchange for the gathering.. had to meet up with her at Plaza Sing to get one. its a Tues for goodness sake.. why were there so many people?!
i hate crowded places...
anyway, got a really cute present.. sob.. i was still hoping to get my own gift in the gift exchange.. haha.. too bad.. but still Darren's present is not bad.. haha..
we had 3 full bottles (2 absolute(40%) and 1 Smirnoff(50%))
we started off really slow.. everyone didn't wanted to drink much.. including me..
then Darren started getting emo.. and kept pulling us to drink with him.. in the end, i had like 10-12 shots. and we emptied the 3 bottles..
worst thing is.. i drove~
"Bartender for the day - Darren"
"i thought bartender wasn't suppose to be drinking while working? haha.. look at how happy he was.. he must be thinking of RuiRong!"
glad that u are safe and sound back in singapore~
Posted by qi at 1:36 PM
Tuesday, December 23, 2008
Updates~
hmmm.. was really sick during the past few days.. so didn't really bothered about blogging.. here are some updates~~went to my sch bash.. woooo.. fun.. had lots to drink~ ppl just kept coming and offering their drinks.. hee..
"sob.. too bad my friend didn't win.. "
Steamboat at bugis!! yummy!! especially in cold weather like this..
"my secret recipe.. i am not going to tell.. nothing will taste as good without it!"
Posted by qi at 2:54 PM
Sunday, December 21, 2008
Can't wait for Christmas~
3 more days to Christmas...Posted by qi at 8:42 PM
tasteless days~
hmmm.. realised that i actually ate more when i am sick.. usually, only one meal a day.. yesterday i actually ate three! haha...but.. sob.. i can't taste anything that i eat.. flu sucks...
my sister finally broke up with her bf le.. hopefully this is for real this time.. that bastard don't deserve her..
i don't know what that asshole means by "i don't like to let my friends know my gf de..".. my sister really that ugly that u are ashame to show ur friend?! or u are just trying to hide the fact that u are attached so u will have more chance with other girls? BASTARD
and whats with u only spending a few hours a week with my sister? and yet u got so much time to spend with ur friends.. if u bloody don't have time for a gf, then stay single..
my sister deserve so much better.. u hear me? u try anything fun.. i will be the one that say sorry to u..
Posted by qi at 11:57 AM
Saturday, December 20, 2008
suffering....
finally fall sick... feels so bad.....i hate being sick..
still i am praying for ur safety in genting
Posted by qi at 2:15 AM
Thursday, December 18, 2008
secret love affair
tonight, our school bash and pageant will be held at Zouk, 8pm till late.. hee.. its been some time since i last club.. need to partyanyway... because of that, i am now working.. sob.. i swap shift with my friend so that i will be free at night for that event.. hmmmm.. morning shift is so so boring...
one major difference between morning and night shift.. i guess is the number of ice-skaters that buy yogurt.. i am surprised.. so many ice-skaters came to buy.. isn't it cold enough up there? if i were them, i think i would prefer some hot coffee or something hot.. haha..
3 more hours to end of my shift.. endure...
looking forward for tonight! yeah!
i am still praying for ur safety in genting..
Posted by qi at 1:57 PM
Wednesday, December 17, 2008
final nail on the coffin
such a tiring day.. had econs in the morning.. and just because i missed one lecture last week.. i am totally lost today.. i seriously don't understand a thing that she is trying to teach.. something about open and close economy.. something about how current account must be in deficit in order for investment to be positive.. and blah blah blah..the worst thing is actually the formula.. its like a bunch of letters just get together and they expect u to remember and make sense out of it.. wth.. being a science student, i really need to know how and why!
thank you Veron.. for passing me the stats assignment to me today.. haha.. well done! u are early for school today.. haha.. but there is still alot of catching up to do.. cos i am always early.. *proud
rushed home to take a nap after sch.. really really tired.. woke up at 4.50pm for work.. ops.. haha.. anyway its so near to my house.. hmph...
thank goodness dewn was here to work with me.. at least its not that unbearable.. so jealous.. that she can go off at 7pm. sob.. go enjoy the christmas lights in town!.. hmmm.. one and a half hour more to go home.. YEAH!
i need something to drink tonight..
while clearing a horrible mess left behind by this family with 2 young child, something strike me..
the mess was so horrible.. yogurt on the table, chair and floor.. tissue everywhere.. toppings everywhere.. that sight just totally turn me away.. first thought..
"how am i suppose to clear this mess.. i don't even know where to start for goodness sake.."
but i didn't have a choice.. reluctantly, i started clearing.. made countless trips back and forth to the dustbin and the sink.. finally i am greeted by a clean table..
hmmm.. it got me wondering.. if we can just start clearing up the mess in my life, a step at a time, one by one, little by little.. we may be able to clear the mess.. hmmm... many a times.. like most people, we were turn off the moment we set eyes on our mess.. without trying, we gave up..
how about trying this out..
LETS START!
i pray for ur safety in genting...
Posted by qi at 8:03 PM
Tuesday, December 16, 2008
feeling lazy
hmmm.. who likes working right? or is it just me? i really struggled to come to work today.. practically dragged myself here.. thank god for xiao hui.. she was the one that really dragged me here.. ^^i am so so lazy right now!!!
so lazy to even take my own lappy out.. decided to just use the one thats left in the store by our boss.. of cos its not as good as mine.. hee... ^^
hmmm.. i am wondering what happened to "aunty".. called her twice yesterday.. didn't even bother to return my call.. just called her again just now.. also never pick up... hmmmmm... something must have happened.. i think...
we were suppose to come out of that shit hole together.. we did.. i chose not to return.. u chose to turn back..
but like we say.. this time may be different.. the shit hole may not be as shitty as before.. but whatever outcome is.. don't regret your decision.. u chose this path.. then don't complain.. jia you!
always remember.. it will get better in time.. spent so much effort to help u make ur blog.. u just delete it like that.. thanks huh!
add on
jung called me today.. she is leaving.. for Korea..
its been about a month since we last spoken.. the fault doesn't lies with u.. i really don't know what i was doing too.. i know i hurt u bad.. i really didn't mean it.. i am really really sorry
really appreciate it that u bothered to call me.. to tell me that u are leaving.. its winter over there.. remember to keep urself warm..
take care........
u will be missed
Posted by qi at 7:20 PM
Monday, December 15, 2008
relationship needs to be maintained
was consoling one of my friend yesterday night.. while i was trying to comfort her, it gets me thinking at the same time..relationship is not a trophy. its not something that u fought for, won it, then shelf it.. it needs constant maintenance.. it needs to be constantly cared for.. constantly looked after..
both parties really need to put in the constant effort to fuel this relationship.. if only one side is doing this, it will never work out.. one should start off everyday by thinking how to make the other "fall in love" with u again.. don't take each other for granted.. never..
a small example.. sometimes my friends will ask me.. why are u still getting roses for your gf? roses are only for valentines day, and the period before u get together with your gf.. waste money now for what..
ha.. i feel that we should really treat our gal better after we got together with them.. because, after they become our gf.. they are now willing to stand by our side.. they are willing to share our pain, sorrow, happiness.. they are willing to play a part in our life.. we should really appreciate that..
a small tip.. no girl hates flowers.. even if they feel that its not practical, some may say its a waste of money.. deep inside.. they won't mind getting one.. studies show that.. girls prefer getting flowers in front of their friends.. YUP! do something to surprise your GF soon~ (of cos.. don't do it if the girl is not your gf and she made it clear that she don't want to complicate things.. that i can't be sure if she will be happy or not)
Posted by qi at 10:11 PM
guys are bastards!
haiz.. my sister quarrelled with her bf again. why can't guys appreciate their gf when they are by their side? why only when u lose them.. then u realise how important they are.. realise that u cannot live without them..ALL GUYS ARE BASTARDS
don't make the same mistake that i made.. whats done is done.. but thats in my case.. u all still have a chance to make it all right.. u all still have the chance to tell them "i love u".. u all still have the chance to embrace them.. u all still have the chance to give them surprises.. still have the chance.....
i don't...
please.. any guy that read this.. please open ur eyes and see.. u love her... u really really do..
Posted by qi at 12:05 AM
Saturday, December 13, 2008
disappointed~
haiz.. on fri.. i am left alone to clear up all the tables for the event.. 20 over tables.. and i am suppose to clear it all up alone.. sad~the head of publicity (i am already giving u the respect not to name u), promised to help.. she did came.. but gave me such a FUCK up attitude.. just stand aside and watch.. i am so damn pissed.. keep standing there and just talk and talk.. STOP FLAPPING UR LIPS.. COS IT STINKS!
i was outside today.. the sky was bright and sunny.. but just a moment later.. dark clouds gathered.. strong wind taunted.. but yet.. that doesn't change as fast as how relationship changes..
hmmm.. want to show off my lappy picture capturing skill! haha.. so cool right.. didn't know that my lappy can do that.. here are some effects~~
Posted by qi at 6:18 PM
Thursday, December 11, 2008
its over finally
my event has finally came to an end..after months of planning, months of stress, months of pressure.. yesterday.. it all ended..
never felt so good for i don't know how long.. and i am so glad that it all went well.. i am sure most of them enjoyed..
had the sense of satisfaction when they came to shake my hands and thank me at the end of the tour...
even though we didn't have the time to really do everything that we planned, i felt it was just nice..
stay tuned for lots of picture and video of the event.. you will see.. that we really had fun..
though i was quite pissed that in the end, only a few of my members actually helped.. but who cares.. i don't need selfish people who are not willing to sacrifice a little of their time for the event.. even my 2nd IC wasn't there for even a day.. haha.. i am in awe..
and omg! i got my very first speeding ticket~ sob.. when i reached home, my dad was waiting~ DEAD~ immediately, i decided to adapt to my sister's secret weapon to escape when she gets into trouble with my dad..
IT WORKS!! i am still alive.. ha.. but.. sob.. but there goes 130 dollars and 4 points from my license.. damn.. stupid nicoll highway.. speed limit is 70km/h.. what kind of highway is that?! still dare name yourself "highway".. I HATE YOU!!!
but i am glad.. at least it means that those other time that i am speeding is not caught.. hee.. Shhhhhhhh... but after this expensive lesson, i will definiately drive alot alot slower.. hmmm.. may be.. haha..
and time flies, my dad is leaving for china today.. sob.. and i can't have dinner with him tonight due to my work.. sob.. sob.. didn't spend much time with him, due to my event and stuff.. sob.. now i am sad.. very sad..
"i don't really care what others say about you.. i like you the way you are.."
Posted by qi at 12:52 PM
Monday, December 8, 2008
the day is tomorrow
finally.. my event will starts tml.. so nervous, yet excited, at the same time stress, but relieve.. mixed emotions..anyway.. after dragging for so long.. its finally going to be over soon.. this is the first time i tried planning something so big.. even though this is not the biggest event i took part in, but this is the biggest i am actually tasked to plan.. hope everything will turn out alright..
keep me in ur prayers..
Posted by qi at 1:15 PM
thats what makes us human
guess something that human possess that makes us humans is the ability to numb ourselves from the pain that we are feeling..its proven that when we feel pain, our brain actually releases some kind of chemical to numb our senses..
if we feel a certain amount of pain for a long period of time, eventually.. it doesn't hurt that much anymore.. eventually..
yet.. actually.. the pain didn't decrease.. the only thing that changed is the amount of pain u are able to take..
no matter how bad something is, it happens for a reason.. maybe u might be wondering why did this happened to me.. why u... u might not see it now.. but time will show.. that everything happens for a reason..
it may be preparing u for something that might be worst in the future.. it might be there just so u can be able to take more pain in the future without being hurt that much..
when u felt extremely painful now.. u will realise that other pain that u suffered or suffering now.. is not that painful after all.. is not that painful anymore...
thus.. be grateful for the pain that u are feeling.. appreciate it.. instead of sinking urself into a state of self pity.. stand up.. hang on.. u are made for something greater than what u are going through..
trust me.. what doesn't kill u.. will definitely make u stronger.. if u are able to pull through this.. everything else won't be that hard anymore..
pain is needed to grow.. thats how we learnt to walk.. thats how we learnt to live.. thats how we learnt to adapt.. thats how we learnt to love..
sorry for listening to all these boring stuff thats in my mind.. i just hope this might encourage someone out there.. it will get better in time.. it will.. it must..
Posted by qi at 2:52 AM
Sunday, December 7, 2008
Daddy's home~
yeah.. my dad finally came home to visit.. he is currently working overseas.. sob.. its really hard on my him to have to leave the comfort of his home just to provide for us.. thank you daddy...went to fetch my dad from the airport, and bought my favourite Jelly Belly from the Cocoa Trees in the departure hall in terminal 3.. hee.. thats really something to look forward for when picking my dad.. hope all his flights in the future is in terminal 3!!
i know that my temper was not really that good recently.. so sorry.. was really stressed by my coming event.. and many other stuff.. thank you for being so understanding~
one bad thing about online shopping.. is the waiting time for the goods to arrive.. ARG~! can't wait to meet the t-shirts that i bought online face to face.. pictures can be deceiving u know.. maybe my t-shirts used his friend's picture instead of its own? hmmmm.. even humans do that.. i don't see why t-shirt won't do the same.. haha.. LAME!!
anyway. christmas is really drawing near.. so excited.. need to shop for gift le. not telling where and what i am buying.. *SURPRISE!!!
anyway.. my event is on the 9 and 10 dec.. its open to public.. so feel free to join us! we will be providing transport.. and all the food that u will be having, scroll down for anymore question,, hee..
Posted by qi at 2:58 AM
Wednesday, December 3, 2008
i still love driving
hmm.. another tiring day.. been in school since 8.30.. after a boring lecture of econs, have to attend to the booth from 11.30 till 3.30.. haiz.. free labour..after that drove to work.. realised that i was early.. slept in my car for about half an hour.. hee.. thanks to the rain, it felt so warm and cosy in my car..
thank God for technology! without my lappy, i really don't know how am i going to survive my boring work~~ chat online most of the time.. and helped SOMEONE fixed her blog.. hee.. i am genius! though i nv took IT before, i am quite good at html commands... be grateful k.. the only person that i made blog for was my ex gf..
finally finished work.. on my way home.. suddenly i start to appreciate driving.. haha.. so used to driving that i totally took it for granted.. guess thats human.. always taking things that are so freely available for granted.. only to know that u cannot live without it after losing it.. hee.. fortunately, i learnt it before losing my car.. HOPE i will nv lose it~~
while driving home, the DJ on the radio played some christmas songs.. like what she says.. christmas songs never fails to bring a smile on anyone's face.. i can't help it.. but smile...
Posted by qi at 11:17 PM
STALKER~~!!!
for my loyal readers~ something really "interesting" happened today... half way doing my booth, i receive this sms out of no where...below is the exact sms i received.. not a single word added or taken out..
"Hi... I think u look cute. Could we like catch up some time aft u'r done organising..? Later I'll be at ur booth. Come say hi to me if u want alrites?! I'm wearing black and my hair's gold... ^^"
this gay/girl is stressing me out.. i don't mind if a girl comes up to me and say that.. i am used to that.. whahahaha.. kk.. but not like these!! now i am super sensitive to girls with gold hair and in black outfit.. i bet its a GAY!
keep me in ur prayers~~ keep u all updated~~
Posted by qi at 2:07 PM
Tuesday, December 2, 2008
i must be dreaming~
so bored!! working now.. but due to the rain, there is really not many people craving for a ice cold yogurt.. i guess thats why starbucks and coffee bean on both side of me are "enjoying" the crowd.. hee.. the part-timers must be cursing and swearing.. whahahahah!!!i hope it rains everyday.. enjoy this quiet time alone in the shop.. hmmm.. damn.. i am addicted to online shopping~~ sob.. such a sinful hobby.. but i manage to get some t-shirts that i really wanted.. sob.. somemore my beloved mother destroyed my favourite headphone design t-shirt.. SOB~~~~
now i finally got some really nice ones.. i rarely buy clothes.. so i guess its ok ba~~ right?
Devil weiqi:this is a very very good excuse wei qi.. continue giving this excuse and u will see xiao hui parking downstairs for the rest of the month.. go.. go shop some more..
SHUT UP DEVIL WEI QI.. so sarcastic.. go back to hell..
damn.. split personality.. thats what happens when u have too much time at work.. whahahhahaa.. playing with kitkat.. folding roses.. taking random pics... stare at ppl walking by.. wave at random ppl.. i love this job!
sob.. this week really overspent.. first i bought this 80 dollars stuff online.. at least i didn't regret it.. then i bought alot of snacks.. er.. worth it la.. then i bought my shirts~ sob.. all at least 80 above.. my god.. work harder!!!!!!!
i must be dreaming.. did i actually saw someone i nv seen in more then half a year.. hee.. anyway.. i am glad...
is it the online shopping or my dream encounter that made me feels so good? i am confused.. hope this feeling will last.. nah.. it won't.. hee.. i know it won't.. who cares... as long as i am feeling it now.. who cares how long it last.. ^^
Posted by qi at 7:52 PM
in the month of Christmas~
wow.. its already DEC! haha.. time flies.. really.. someone told me yesterday.. thats its a brand new week and a brand new month~ yup... lets hope its true for u and me k! haha..yesterday was really tired.. thats why in the end didn't blog.. was at the booth the whole day.. responds was better than fri.. and a few groups of ppl already pre-booked places for the food tour.. yeah!!
i am so much better now~
